Showing posts with label children. Show all posts
Showing posts with label children. Show all posts

Tuesday, April 30, 2013

Practice makes perfect

Everyone should at least know that phrase.  How often did we hear it growing up?  Not all of us are "super talented" where we can pick things up in a couple of minutes and then look like we've always known how to do it.

I remember during my college years when studying to become a teacher, they used to video our presentations.  This ways we could see ourselves in all our glory (or not).  When it comes to public speaking, I would say practice does definitely help.  I've been "presenting" now for over 15 years.  I will never say it's "easy" to just get up in front of people, but usually for me when I start going over the basics, I relax and it becomes easier. (I'm a trainer by occupation now).

So, my daughter had a project to do for school.  A diorama.  Not only that, they're going to have to present their information in front of the class.  Bad Mom, we've had over a month to work on the diorama -- we just finished it last night.  We've had their "content" to be delivering for a couple of weeks now -- I'm just now working with her.  It's due this Friday.

I do feel bad that we didn't get it all done when we should have - but there's been sickness in the family and my back being out, along with trying to get the house in shape for my parents visit, there just isn't enough time in the day to get it all done.

So, working with my daughter on presenting has been challenging.  She is a bundle of energy.  The last time she did a presentation, they all marked she needed to stand still.  Which of course I still laugh about - as I don't think she's ever truly still except maybe when sleeping.

What I didn't expect was tears and "I can't do this."  You sit and ask her questions about the topic she can tell you, but to put it in a "report" she blocks herself.  So I've been trying to help her with this.  One of the things I did first was have her hold her hands together in front of her.  Hopefully this will help keep the twitching down.  I have a feeling without this, she's going to be dancing throughout her presentation.  I seriously thought about maybe doing this presentation in song, but I'm not sure the teacher would appreciate that.

Still more tears.  So I sat down and basically told her she had to go through all the points before I'd let her sit down.  You know what?  She did it.  Was it great?  No, it was stilted, but she at least got through it.  Then what was great was we were watching a little TV last night and when the commercials came on at one point, I had her do it again.  It was much better and little drama to go with it. 

I figure if I can continue this process the rest of this week, she may actually have a decent presentation.  So for her, practice may not make it "perfect", but it is definitely helping....

What in your life do you need to practice to help make it perfect? 

Friday, April 12, 2013

Bittersweet...

Yesterday, I was driving in and listening to an Unlimited Abundance session and I think had a breakthrough with something I was holding on to.  It's good when you yawn or even cry when listening to sessions.

It was so busy at work yesterday.  I didn't even get a chance to work on something I've been meaning to get to -- so hopefully today.  I went home and our PT person came to work with our youngest.  I can not tell you how much I love this person.  She has always taken very good care of Sammy and given us items to help us so we didn't have to purchase one -- like a walker.  She also listens and responds to my hubby -- who can be a bit oblivious at times.  We <3 her!  We're also getting down to the last few sessions with her, before Sammy turns 3.  It's a bittersweet moment, even more to me because she's such a lovely light positive energy when she comes. 

She helped me last night (so my prayers were answered) about the situation with my son and getting speech therapy and both getting the hearing tests.  Hubby being who he is, basically told her that they accept everyone.  She told him no they don't.  She has seen over her many years with the organization people she thought for sure would qualify for assistance that they said no too.  Then to top it off, she basically told him (and me) that she thinks it was a good move to get the hearing tested -- especially son with his dropping middle consonants.  She even told us that she talked to one of the PT people that will be taking over when she turns 3 -- telling her she was getting one of "her most favorite kids".  That made me feel really good that she would do that.  I will definitely miss her presence in our lives... however, I have her email and phone -- so I will definitely stay in touch :)

I am moving on with my life.  I will do everything I can to help my children become the best they can be.  I have been known to be a bit critical of things at times ( hubby calls it column A and B -- and you don't want to be on "B") -- but I do that because I only except the best for my kids.  I do a lot of research and try to go to the medical appointments because I want to at least once meet the doctor(s) that will be working on them.  I have a pretty good internal guidance system that allows me to see (most of the time) how people really are -- so if I sense you're not good for us as a family or my kid(s) especially -- I have no qualms in finding someone that is.

Now to find some shoes to go over Sammy's braces so we can get this girl walking :)

Thursday, March 21, 2013

No idea

How often do you feel that you have no idea of where your life is going and worse where it's been?

For so long in my life, I was just coasting.  It's funny looking back, I in my teens seemed to know me and what I wanted in my life and what I wanted to do with my life.  Then one day that disappeared.  I got "caught up" in LOVE.  So much so, I lost myself in the process.  Between him and work slowly working that I was no good, I eventually thought it.

As you can see, I eventually got out of that situation, first work then relationship and I thought I was happy.

Then came the kids.  I have always wanted children.  ALWAYS.  Ask anyone who knows/knew me and that will be one constant I'm sure.  So when I had my first, both my husband and I were very excited.  Until that dreaded appointment when I found out (I was alone) that something was wrong with her.  And not just one thing, multiple things.  Multiple things that could have a lasting affect.  Heart, Kidney and Spine.  So instead of the first time parents thing my husband and I were expecting, we ended up in a crash course of doctors and medical jargon.  Good news was she's doing well now.  We still have to monitor her for the different things and she'll have to have more surgeries in the future, but she's stable right now.

So, after that experience, I had a miscarriage and then got pregnant again.  Had issues with that pregnancy right from the start.  Again, instead of a happy pregnancy, this time we found out the child had Trisomy 18.  Now came the very hard decision of going through the pregnancy with the chance the child wouldn't make it through the pregnancy or birth or terminating it all together.  This is when I had to do some major soul searching.  I didn't understand why this kept happening to me.  My husband was immediately "we'll continue with the pregnancy" -- me I wasn't as sure at that point when the question was asked.  Men can say all they want about the pregnancy, but until they can actually do the carrying -- it's the woman's choice.  I did come to the decision of carrying her, but it was a hard decision.  Especially when the husband was busy talking about caskets and what to do with the funeral stuff.  I finally had to tell him to back off.  I was more concerned in getting her to live.  I would deal with the other stuff when/if it happened.  BTW, there are wonderful people out there that have children still living with Trisomy 18.  My hat goes off to them for being such wonderful people taking care of these special souls.  Well, I did manage to give birth and she did manage to live 2 days.  But we did lose her.  I was sad, but at peace.  I truly felt like she was a "lesson" to me to not take life for granted and live each and every moment -- not get caught up into what I like to call the "day-to-day" crapola.

So I did, I took each moment more seriously, until 3 months after her birth I was pregnant again.  In my gut, I knew I was carrying twins, which was confirmed a few months later.  So now because of my age and then having twins, I had a lot of appointments.  In these appointments we found out genetically they didn't have Trisomy, their hearts were good and so we thought we were in the clear until they started noticing on my girl twin that something was going on with her brain.  It wasn't until after she was born that we got the diagnosis of Agenesis of Corpus Callosum.  Basically she was missing the bundle of nerves that communicate between the two hemispheres of the brain.  What did that mean?  No one knows as each case is different.

So here we go again.  Unknown.  No idea.  All I can do is love my children and make them try to be the best that they can be.  Not what I want them to be -- that's setting  yourself up for failure, but accepting them for the individuals they are.

So, my spirituality has been stagnant for awhile due to all of "this life stuff going on", until recently and it's been fast pace ever since.  Now I'm at a different vibration level and feel like I'm starting new all over again with things.  Which direction do I go in now?  Guess what -- NO IDEA :D

But if I've learned nothing else from my experiences (so far) in life is to take each day as it comes and really really don't sweat the small stuff.  And of course that's easier said than done -- why?  Because emotions are involved.  So because of that, learn to breathe and try and get centered again.