Been CRAZY lately

Past couple of days.. crazy energy.  Mine included.  Doesn't help that I'm not sleeping.  Work was punishing the past couple of days, so sorry I didn't get many posts up.

Well I must be having MAJOR releases.  I've done the I'm not worthy EFT for a couple of times as well as one for bringing money into my life.  (haven't seen the money yet -- but it's still early)

One of the messages I have in my mind movie that I mad is that I manifest abundance through love and joy.  Now I'm thinking abundance like wealth - as that's the purpose I'm currently working on.  Instead, I am being surrounded by love.  Like really crazy things.

I suppose it comes back to the whole self-worth.  Like why would these people like let alone love me.  I see myself as a good friend to have, but I'm not wealthy, I don't have "looks" per se, and I start listing the things.  But now I see.  After getting some sleep, now I see.  I am not like most women.  Probably because I was always "one of the guys".  I am honest (sometimes to a fault), don't play games, definitely don't like to lie (never ends out well), and I LOVE life.  I see such joy in little things.  I enjoy so many things - music, dancing, tv shows (reality stuff included), movies, books.. etc.

I now see the worth of me.  I have finally become worthy.  I have LOVE to give and LOTS of it.  And I do it joyfully without reservation.  Who wouldn't want that?

Such a day of discovery -- how about you?  What have you discovered about yourself?

Feeling Worthy?

My course I've been working on has been trying to get things in line to bring great things to me.  I've even talked about some of them throughout my blogs here and there.

Well this week was all about Eliminating Self-Limiting Beliefs.  Apparently now matter how hard you put toward being happy, getting positive affirmations, etc, there may be hidden self-limiting beliefs in your subconscious that may be sabotaging what you're trying to do.

They used Emotional Freedom Technique or "tapping" to help you work through these self-limiting beliefs.  The example that they went through was thinking it was impossible.  That one was high on my list as was another and I was surprised at how much I did release doing this.  I then went back later and did the I'm not worthy version.  I found on You Tube someone working through this using EFT.  HUGE, gulping cries were pulled out of me during this process.

I was taken back to a few moments in my life that I felt that I wasn't worthy.  Instead of dwelling on them and making me feel worse - like usual - they felt more detached.  I finally saw where I got that belief and I felt more ready to move on from it.  I'm sure I have others, as I don't think I'm down number wise where I need to be, but I feel a heck of a lot better.

For the first time, I'm hopeful  -- really hopeful  -- that everything I want will come true.  I feel lighter and more positive than I have in a long time.  Helping others is all I've ever really wanted to do.  Now instead of focusing on them all and using helping them to make me happy.  I'm happy and it's going to make what I do even better.

I've done some major looking at my life and what isn't working and working on fixing it so it does work for me.

So take a moment and state to yourself, I am not worthy and feel your gut and what level does it have for you. 8-10 should be major discomfort, possibly actual pain.  5-7 is mild discomfort in how it makes you feel and when you hardly have a reaction you're probably 4 or less.  For once you want to be as low as possible.  Then I suggest you find a you tube where someone walks you through the tapping process and helps you with that issue.  It is worth it.

There are times

when we need to take care of our self.  Wednesday night I came home to a sick child.  I of course seem to be the only one that recognizes when she's sick.  Due to her heart condition, I also can't sit and wait it out.  So I took yesterday off from work.  Just to verify we didn't have an infection.  No ears, sinus or strep.  Appears at the moment to be viral.  So, with that being done.  I decided to go to urgent care and get myself checked out.  Again, been dealing with pain in my lower back/leg and not sleeping.  So it was time to get it checked out.  Dr. there referred me to a chiropractor that he has worked with before.  I definitely had sciatic pain.

So I manage to get in later that afternoon.  I really like this practice.  Let me tell you, I have not had good experiences in the past with Chiropractors, so I tend to stay away from them.  Turns out yes, I have the sciatica, but worse a pinched nerve.  They tell me they're going to be doing stretching and PT stuff with me to get the pain to stop, when that happens, they'll see if I even need to be adjusted.  While talking to the guy, he finds out I have twins and says his brother just found out they're expecting twins.  He then goes on about how many sessions he thinks he'll need and if I can afford the $25 copay.  Anything at this point to stop the pain and be able to sleep comfortably again.  Then he's like wait, you've got 3 kids.. I'll make it $20 copay.  And we won't charge you for this session, we'll call it a consultation.

I feel so blessed to have been sent to him.  Then when I was setting up the next couple of appointments, one of the other doctors came out and we got talking and it turns out that she has a daughter a year younger than my eldest who had a brain condition (sorta like my youngest).  Had a nice discussion over that.  Small world!

So yes, I wasn't completely out of pain, but at least it wasn't radiating down my leg last night.  I can't wait to see what today's appointment brings.

Blessing come in all different packages -- I'll take each and every one of them - how about you? :)

What a little sleep can do

I've been dealing with this issue along my lower back/leg.  It's sorta like a moving "charlie horse" that is wrapping around my sciatic nerve.  So it's making sleeping difficult.  Some days are worse than others.

Monday night into Tuesday were one of those times.  I have a long commute into work and because I didn't really sleep, I decided to stay home.  I got good sleep a little in the morning and also some in the afternoon.

I even got good sleep last night!  Woke up groggy, but in a MUCH better mood and frame of mind.  So it's amazing to me what a little sleep can accomplish.  I'm very much a happy camper today - even at work - and in a huggy mood.  Not sure I should really go around hugging my co-workers though :D  Will have to wait to give to my kids when I get home.

Now if anyone wants virtual ones -- just contact me :D  Happy to oblige :) <3

So being in this good mood - I pulled a card from the Angel Tarot --

The Magician (Archangel Raziel)
"You are ready!  You have the resources or the ability to manifest them.  Life is magical!"

Time to let go of those insecurities that have been holding you back.  As the angels for assistance.  Everything you have gone through has prepared you for this moment.  Keep your vibration high and let opportunities come to you.  Keep focused on the end game of where you want to go.

AWESOME I say!  How about you?

Receiving

How many of us are really good receivers?  I am not.  I always love giving of myself or gifts to others.  Very rarely do I feel comfortable in receiving something.

I pulled a card today from Doreen Virtue's Goddess deck.  Hathor - Receptivity.  "Allow yourself to receive.  This will increase your intuition, energy, and ability to give to others."

Hmmm.. makes me think.  Is the reason I am not making any big progress in my allowance is because I feel like I don't deserve it?  If so, how do I change that?

I took a major step this weekend and when hubby said he'd take the kids with him for most of the day - I let him.  Normally one or two will stay with me.  While they were gone, I made use of the kid free time and cleaned (pitched) up my daughter's room.   It had gotten so bad that even she was like - we need to clean Mom.

She's thrilled that she can actually put stuff into the closet now and there's still room for her to sit in there.  I used to do that.  It was fun being inside the closet.  When I was cleaning it, that brought back memories of doing such when I was little.

Last night, my youngest came over for loves.  There is nothing like getting hugs from my kids.  Mainly because I know how short of time that can be.  I am hoping I'm loving enough with them little that they'll continue while they "grow up".

So universe.. I will try and learn to be gracious with the gifts that I'm given... I'm am ready to receive.

Busy Beaver

Had breakfast out with the family and then they took off for most of the day.  I did some running around to not get what I needed and so I'm back to clean house while they are gone.  Or at least a few things.

I can already see my daughter's floor room - now about to tackle a closet that .. well.. hasn't been tackled probably since we moved in.  I'm getting rid of stuff while people are gone - so they don't have time to miss it.  They'd miss it if I found it even if they hadn't seen it for 5 years or more.  Time to purge!!

So, how are you all spending your weekend?  I'd write more - but need to strike while they're all out! TTYL

New gifts

I love when I get new gifts.  Any gifts - and I'm not talking physical gifts (though those are nice too - I'm just bad at receiving them - getting better though!).  What I'm talking about is an intuitive response.  It just started this week.  Apparently the corners of my eyes are very sensitive.  So while I'm driving I'm asking the question which road I should take and one eye seems "heavier" than the other and that's my answer.  Yesterday without asking they started pulling on my right eye, unfortunately I was in the left lane and couldn't get over in time.  Turns out there was a major traffic jam just over the hill.

So now I set up my eyes being yes or no.  So instead of my pendulum which I had been using for yes/no questions, I get to use this body response. 

I am LOVING expanding my gifts!  I keep asking about opening even more.  I am going to "come out"in my book - so I might as well as be as open as I can. :)

I'm also making new connections in my life.  I'm learning the social media marketing - trying to bring people to my website: www.healingsbyharmonize.com  and the one I share with my spiritual friends http://divinepathways.com  But I'm also meeting these new people and getting to know more about them.  It's great!  I love making new friends.  When I was a kid, strangers were just friends I hadn't met yet.  My eldest is the same way.  The downside is people usually don't know how to "take" us.  I've learned to tone it down some, because I'm more aware that not everyone is comfortable with hugs or my sarcastic type of humor.  But, I feel when I do that, I am denying who I really am.  I've seen here at work being more of myself and of course being in a happier place is helping.  We've had 2 new people start up in the past month and it's been great getting to know them. 

I'm also taking and doing different exercises trying to bring my vibration higher.  The higher it is the better my chances and the things that can come into my life.  And in turn, because of my natural healing ability, I seem to be affecting those I touch.  Almost like I am a "lucky" object.  I just need to figure out how I can be my own :D

But this morning, I had a HUGE awareness and breakthrough.  I was sobbing on the way in.  That is my way of getting rid of the baggage.  So I'm asking that any and all blockages or things that are holding me back be resolved.  I'm done holding on to them.  Please heal them.  Of course more sobbing happened.  I'm very hopeful that more good things are coming to me and I in turn can then help others.

How about you?  What are you holding on to that is still holding you back.  It may be something you may not even be aware of -- something that happened when you were a child.  You just have to ask for help and it will come.