I seem to "heal" other people's issues. Sometimes it's just a matter of me talking to them. I'm seeing all sorts of breakthroughs on individuals where I've posted a message to them of encouragement as well as in real life.
So then I have to ask myself, why isn't it working for me? Do I just have really deep seated issues that I'm not even aware of and it's going to take more time for me? I don't want to believe that. I want to believe that if I conceive and believe I can achieve and it doesn't take that much time to do.
But here I am. Still feels like I'm spinning my wheels. Spiritual, Emotionally, Physically. I want that breakthrough that will propel me forward.
I woke up very tired this morning. Was a hard day physically for me yesterday. It's raining and I just feel down. Normally when I feel that way, I start with my gratitudes. I say at least 5 of them and that usually does the trick. Nope, not today. As I'm driving, I'm hitting every light I can in town. Which normally would put me into another meltdown. Today, I just keep repeating different gratitudes.
Driving in, hit some commuter traffic. I finally decide to put on my "upbeat" music. These are songs that have meaning and usually some good dance tunes. Make me very happy (usually). I noticed today that it's not as affective as it normally is. I'm happier, but still have what feels like a physical pain around my heart. I'm working hard at trying to remove it.
So I'm hopeful that this will get resolved and I will be the one finally moving forward where I need to be.
Blessings to everyone that reads this today!
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